hey. i'm sorry i acted like such a freak today. i know you could probably tell i was scared. i don't think i even looked you in the eye once. i don't rember it at all. maybe just once, but i know i looked at pretty much everything but you. i treated you like anyone else i don't know. it was so weird. i'm sorry. thank you for getting off the phone, by the way. i was disappointed to see it, but I thought it was really nice how you apologized after you put it away. thank you.
any way, i'm sorry i was scared. my heart just sinks. i get gun shy, like i'm waiting to be slapped or beaten. It's not a good way to live. In fear- that's the word that encompasses all of that... i cringe, waiting for the rod to fall upon me. and plus, i can't say anything with your audience or comrades around. it sucks.
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