another thursday come and gone, this time without freaking out. panic attacks still typical while driving there, and insane raging floods of impatience coming home, but whatever. we survived it. man i am totally ready for this to end. i have to be patient though. to everyone, i'm sorry this has turned into crappy lamo letters and notes. it WAS writing and poetry and crap, but now just whining. sorry guys. like i said, not for you any way, but any WAY. gotta go out of town this weekend. suuuuuucks